If I had a Death note and I met a Shinigami, what would I do?

It’s the end of the peak season and the fatigue of the summer is taking its toll. It’s also true that it’s Halloween, which is becoming very fast my favorite part of the year. Hence the combination of these two elements resulted in this post!

When you’re in your living room, tired, at the end of the day and you’re trying uselessly to drain your brain while it’s leaking through your nose, I guess it’s pretty normal thinking about these kind of stuff.

Also when you’re almost on the edge of your holiday and the work has become a bit heavier due to the increasing number of crazy people, you really start wondering whether there is a way out of the stress and the mess.

For those who don’t know what Death Note is I’ll tell you in a few words. It’s a manga and an anime with a very simple story. A high school student finds a death note on the ground and start using it slowly becoming obsessed what the idea to play god. The reason why he finds a death note on the ground is a Shinigami, a death god, who decided to make his immortal existence funnier and dropped the divine instrument to have a fun with the consequences of his gesture.

The basic of this notebook is that if you write a name on its pages, knowing the face of the person, this person dies. If you add details about the death, the death happens in that exact way.

Light Yagami, the main character of this manga and anime, uses the notebook at first to kill all the criminals and then he got a bit taken into the loop of feeling god and things start to get out of hands!

I’m not giving you any further spoilers here, but I didn’t like the end.

One of the worse finale I’ve ever seen in my life.

Anyway, what I thought watching this anime and being an aspiring writer, is: how these guys came out with the idea in the first place? They must have been pretty pissed off at someone, I’d say.

And then, during the peak season and, most of all, during the calm spell after that, where only the craziest and less reasonable people are calling and writing in, I had my enlightenment.

The writer and/or the illustrator behind Death Note used to work in the customer support field.

There is absolutely no other explanation to this creation.

I mean, I know that wanting to kill people because they’re damn idiots, or impolite, or because yell at you for no reason whatsoever sounds extreme …oh wait, no it’s not.

No… yes, it is.

But what if we could have a Punishment Note? Oh that would be so cool!

Write his name and his brain disappears, write her name and the vocal chords are gone. Are you insulting me? Fine, I’ll write down your name and you’ll spend a day on the toilet.

Are you mistreating me after I really went above and beyond for you? Fine, next time you’ll be at the beach your sun cream will become by magic pure frying oil.

Are you asking me a silly question after a very detailed explanation? Fine, you’ll never ever find a free toilet again in your life! Someone will be always in there!

It sounds like a very creative job!  

It seems all very legit as well!

I know that I might sound extreme and good thing I was working alone from home last day before my holidays, because I looked like I pictured myself in this doodle:


How about you?

Any other aspiring writers out there, doing tough jobs?

And anyway, Happy Halloween folks, have a spooky one!


Thank you, thanks a lot!

Google search!

Google search!

I was writing a totally different post this week, but something happened two days ago that made me change my mind.

I wrote the draft of this post on the train back home because I didn’t want to let go the nice feeling. This explains the timing!

A few days ago, during a meeting, I had a brief chat with one colleague in work. She’s from another department so that was the longest chat I’ve had with her since I’ve started to work here. Honestly we’re so many in the office that is hard to know everybody.

During the chat I mentioned the fact I write in this little blog of mine and she asked me the link.

To be brutally honest I thought it was the usual “send me the link I’ll have a look at it!” I’m usually told when I’m asked the address of my blog.

I know that I can be very needy of a feedback once I give the address to someone, but I learned that seldom people really read my pages with attention.

You can imagine my big surprise when I met her that evening and she told me that not only she had read the blog but she also liked it! I was so surprised and happy!

I’m still not good in accepting compliments from people and I still felt a tad embarrassed but it was pleasant to hear such comments.

I could really tell that he spent some time on my blog and I’m so grateful for that.

Seldom I felt this way, only after a few feedbacks, but it was useful! Useful because it reminds me why I’m writing and how I would like my readers would react reading my words.

It’s true what they say: even if it’s only one person reading your stuff, you should write for that one person. And it is damn true!

I should well remember it in a period like the present one, when I often feel a bit tired and disheartened for the lack of time.

In conclusion, I want to say that I made this big explosion of words in order to tell her: thanks Kate! Thanks a lot!

And you, my dear readers, I guess you should thank her too…she saved you for a much creepier post! I might save it for Halloween week!

Be a ninja!

I could have been a normal human being, living a normal boring and/or relaxed life, or, considering the amount of things I have to do, a juggler.

Since I’m not good in being neither of them, I decided I’d be a ninja.

Ninjas are great, and also they have that exotic flavor added to being cool.

I know I’m not cool and I don’t like juggling, but I love ninja!

I know you are wondering what I’m talking about!

It’s understandable, only who knows me better can follow me in my thoughts and random rant.

This, my dear readers, is a mad rant or a rant voiced by my madness.

I’m very tired and I’m a tad sad as well, as I’m not able to do all the things I’d love to do…. everything as usual, right?

All these lines just to say the following: I’ve been trying to prepare a blog post for days, but I’d need a bit more time, so I decided to introduce you to my ninja family of three: ninja-ma, ninja-da and ninja-jr.

I realized I have to laugh about things, otherwise my brain will suffer more than is doing now, hence the idea. Also I love doodling, I’m not by all means an illustrator, and sometimes I try to convey in my doodle my feelings.

I don’t think they’re well drawn but I think they’re understandable.

I’m saying all this because I might share with you some more of my doodles in the future!

For now, here is my ninja family!


You can make it, Franny!

Hi all, my dear readers,

I haven’t posted for a while now. Actually, almost a month, I really suck!

I had to take a break, I pushed myself too much during April, mostly psychologically-wise!  

I’m making every effort I can in order to push and squeeze myself into the routine again, but it seems that something is blocking me.

My partner keeps saying that working at the computer all day in my new job, maybe prevents me from sitting again at the computer to write.

He might be right again. But I have no other option.

Even if I wanted to stay away from the screen, that would mean I’d have to write everything on a notebook, but once again I’ll have to copy the handwritten part sooner or later, so back to the screen.

Actually I think that what happened was I pushed too much through April. On the top of the normal routine I haven’t got used yet, I wanted to try and publish every day a blog post. I thought I’d organized in a decent way, but I had to surrender to the fact I didn’t.

My brain then was overwhelmed by what I wanted to do and what I had to do and the frustration of not being able to do it.

After I decided to give up the challenge, I guess I was very sad and not willing to do anything for a while, no strength left really.

Than laziness and the refusal to do anything even a bit challenging or requiring the minimum of effort kicked in. On the top of that the feeling of being stupid and good for nothing creeped in and I haven’t recovered until now.

But that’s it, I said to myself.

I have to get up and keep going!

So, as I promised in my last post, I’m going to publish the last letters of the A to Z challenge, so I’ll give this event a closure in a way or the other.

Meanwhile, at last, I kept taking notes on my faithful notebook. Yes, I have a different one for notes for the blog, and there is plenty of material there.

Actually the routine is changed right now, but I’ll tell you more about it in one of the next posts.

So I apologize again and then I’ll see you soon with letter S.

Have a lovely weekend! 🙂

Google search together with Maya! We needed a cheer leader for me!

St. Patrick’s day relief!

I want to wish you all Happy St. Patrick’s festivities!

Since I’ve opened this blog, I’ve done it.

Google search!

I have a news for this year though, a news that could be very sad for someone but somewhat sweet for me!

Unless something very peculiar would happen in my new workplace, there won’t be any post-Paddy’s blog.

The reason is that I don’t work in the monster factory anymore and, because of that, I won’t be witness of the stupidity that comes out in tourists during these events.

I’m quite happy and relaxed actually, as I’ll be able to take my breaks as any other human being, I’ll be able to paint my nails in green without asking permission AND, this is a huge plus, I’ll be finally able to wear my naked leprechaun earrings!

I love weird earrings, you know that, but this is not even the point.

The real point is that, finally, I’m in a place where people appreciate my character and I can express my being weird without being called cuckoo!  

Yes, they’ve done there…and more than once.

At the same time, I wish my ex-colleagues, well the ones I love and I miss, all the best!


This is me instead! Well, my hand!

I’m officially in Béloland!

Little present I got!

Little present I got!

Hello my dear readers, I hope you’re all good!

My planned post for this week was different, and I know I gave you some news already, but I have such a great and unexpected one, that I wanted to share it with you.

After all, this blog follows my life events, with no distinction, so here I am, happy like I haven’t been for a while!

You know that I’ve started working in a new place last year. You also know that I was in probation and that it was extended. Also you’re aware of the big wave of bad luck that has hit me from January onwards.

Until now!

Finally, the first good news of the year: I’ve passed the probation! I’m officially in!

I was given the good news by my micro-team, my lead and my team coordinator. They made me a surprise and I was so excited that my hands were shaking for the strong mix of emotions. I just couldn’t stop to hug them all!  

The Italian team is very big so it was divided in three smaller ones.

I know I thanked my micro-team already on Facebook, and I might sound very cheesy, but since I consider this blog more important and I feel more comfortable writing here, I’ll go into details!

I’ll introduce them one by one and thank them singularly because they deserve it and because… I said so!

Also be warned, that the following descriptions will seem a bit repetitive and maybe they are. This might be annoying for someone, but it just shows me how lucky I am I ended up in this particular mini team of people so similar to me.

So let’s get started!

Mariangela, my lead. She’d been of great support during the past months. She’s sweet, encouraging and treat us like we were her kids. I don’t mean in the patronizing negative way, what I mean is that she loves and cares for us in a way a mum would do. She’s not only lead but friend, which is something amazing, in particular if you consider the working history I had!

Fede, she’s one of the nicest person I’ve ever met. I’ve never seen her sad or grumpy once. She’s helped me a lot practically with tons of feedback and advices. She always has a joke or a good and nice word for everybody.

Elena is sweet. She’s honest and direct, telling you the truth at any time. She has a huge respect for everybody and she helped me with many useful advices. She was also a great moral support, in particular when I was in needy mood.

Chiara is the youngest not only of our-micro team, but also of the whole one. Despite that she’s wise. She helped me at the very beginning when I was spitted out of the second training and my brain looked very much like a puzzle scattered on the ground!

Matteo is the gentleman of my micro-team, and he’s so very sweet. He always has a nice word for everybody. It’s incredible how he understands when someone needs help, a good word or a hug. And it’s hard to explain how I appreciated this peculiarity of his in the past few months!

Cristiana, or as we call her zia Cri, is a firm, expert and wise member of our team. You want to know something, she knows it. She has also this new age side that makes her sweet tones and behavior even more welcoming.

Loredana is our smiling and sweet great voice. She’s a singer and she’s one of the nicest and sweetest member of our team. The funniest part is that her face is so sweet and good natured that even when she doesn’t say anything, it calms you down and make you feel at ease.

Stefania is the heart of fire of our mini team. She has such a strong personality, l admire the direct way she speaks and the powerful aura all about her. At the same time, she loves cats and she has a kind smile so to be perfect for us too.

Outside my team I have to say a big thank you to other three people.

I mean, my gratitude goes to the whole team and the other two leads as well, but the people I’m mentioning have a special place in my heart.

Luca, he’s our team coordinator. I’ve never met a person like him. He remembers everything, he cares about everybody. He organizes surprises for each and every member of the team, and we’re almost thirty. He has a kind and encouraging word for everybody. He understands your character and gives you advices accordingly. He’s sincere and very sweet.

Everybody loves him in the team, when he’s on holiday we greatly miss him.

Stefano. I’m fond of this guy, just because he looks really alike my brother. He’s fairer that my brother but some of the expressions and way of behaving are so very likely. But apart from this, he’s willing to help any time, very sweet and extremely skillful in explaining things.

Fede, the original one, I met her when I still was working in the monster factory. First of all, it’s thanks to her that I had the opportunity to join this awesome company.

Also she’s so very sweet, always ready to listen to you, your rants and your fears; kicks your butt to make you react when you see only black; motivates you to improve and make it even better.

I owe her a lot, I will always owe her a lot.

So thanks for reading this and bearing kindly my chatterboxness, if you let me invent a new word.

Next posts will go back to normal…well normal, it depends what you mean for normal!

Thanks again!

Have a lovely week, my dear readers!

Learning to love myself

One of the most common critiques I receive from friends and people in general is that I should love myself  more. 

I honestly find this very hard to do. I don’t know why. I guess that being able to admit it is a baby step forward in order to reach this goal. 

But I want to write this post in order to remind me something. 

If you remember I complained two posts ago because I hadn’t received any message or mail from almost anybody in the office while I was sick. I still think that it is a bit disappointing, although at the end of the second last week someone wondered where I was. 

I just have to thank my lead and my friend F. who were present for the whole sick spell. Thanks a lot! 

I will for sure move a little bit less freely knowing that not everybody likes me like I like them, but that’s the history of my life. 

However, when I went back into the office, I arrived to the 8 shift and I found a very colorful and full  of cards desk, with welcoming messages. Later on I was presented with a wonderful plant. 

Here is the picture:

Welcoome back Francy

So I thought that if I love myself at least a bit, I should be able to admit that I felt pampered, and maybe worth a bit since I received that sweet treatment. 

There are a still a few bits and pieces I cannot place, but I will probably sooner or later. 

For the rest, my toddler is feeling still a bit sick, and I hope against hope that my partner won’t fall next. I hate this year so much already. 

I hope in a better February. 

I don’t own the image. Goole search!

So what do you think?

Share in the comments with me!