Hi all, my dear readers,
I haven’t posted for a while now. Actually, almost a month, I really suck!
I had to take a break, I pushed myself too much during April, mostly psychologically-wise!
I’m making every effort I can in order to push and squeeze myself into the routine again, but it seems that something is blocking me.
My partner keeps saying that working at the computer all day in my new job, maybe prevents me from sitting again at the computer to write.
He might be right again. But I have no other option.
Even if I wanted to stay away from the screen, that would mean I’d have to write everything on a notebook, but once again I’ll have to copy the handwritten part sooner or later, so back to the screen.
Actually I think that what happened was I pushed too much through April. On the top of the normal routine I haven’t got used yet, I wanted to try and publish every day a blog post. I thought I’d organized in a decent way, but I had to surrender to the fact I didn’t.
My brain then was overwhelmed by what I wanted to do and what I had to do and the frustration of not being able to do it.
After I decided to give up the challenge, I guess I was very sad and not willing to do anything for a while, no strength left really.
Than laziness and the refusal to do anything even a bit challenging or requiring the minimum of effort kicked in. On the top of that the feeling of being stupid and good for nothing creeped in and I haven’t recovered until now.
But that’s it, I said to myself.
I have to get up and keep going!
So, as I promised in my last post, I’m going to publish the last letters of the A to Z challenge, so I’ll give this event a closure in a way or the other.
Meanwhile, at last, I kept taking notes on my faithful notebook. Yes, I have a different one for notes for the blog, and there is plenty of material there.
Actually the routine is changed right now, but I’ll tell you more about it in one of the next posts.
So I apologize again and then I’ll see you soon with letter S.
Have a lovely weekend! 🙂