I’d love to be like her!

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Maybe one of the most interesting part of being a writer or at least an aspiring writer is getting the ability to live someone else’s life.

You can live through your writing the life of someone similar to you or someone totally different, or someone who you would like to be, it doesn’t really matter.

As for me the characters I love more and I enjoy more to write about are those whose lives I would like to live or the ones I’d never dare to live, like the villains.

It’s not a secret I’m a bit boring and I live a very anonymous life. However, giving a hint of my character to my fictional creations, I can write scenes where I live fully, I dare, I fight, I ride horses, I find a dragon, I use magic and so on…

Likewise, when I read a book or I watch a film or a TV show, when I see a character I like, I start to think how she’s so much better compared to me and how much I would like to be more like her.

True is that, if you take this awe and admiration as push to improve yourself, it might be useful as well.

Following I decided to make a list of fictional characters – it doesn’t matter if from books, films, TV shows, manga or anime – whom I’d love to be alike, at least for a piece of their behavior or attitude!

Katniss Everdeen from Hunger Games: I’d love her strength, her practical expertise and her ability to land on her feet after a fall.

Hermione Granger from Harry Potter series: I love her knowledge, her ability to remember so many things after reading them only once.

Sara Lance from Arrow universe: I love her strength and commitment. She’s just cool.

Claire Randall Fraser from Outlander: I’d love to have her spirt of adaptation and her ability to heal won’t hurt either.

Lagertha from Vikings: She’s strong, she’s a warrior and only a greater good can convince her to come to a compromise.

Charlie from Supernatural: she’s smart and nerdy, bust she’s brave as well, sometimes pushing herself over her limits.

Mrs. Errol, mother of Little lord Fauntleroy: she’s a great mother and a great woman. I wish I could be like her.

Molly Weasley from Harry Potter series: she’s a great mother too. I might identify a couple of traits with her as she worries about everybody and caring for them; but at the same time, she’s strong and brave and daring. She can endure whatever pain and offence, but if you’re touching the family, you’re in deep trouble.

Robin from One Piece: she’s a pirate, the one kind I love most – which is the villain with a big heart – but she’s extremely cultured, brave and strong.

I think that’s it, there might be more, but I’m still on time for a later update!

Actually, writing down the names I realized I have a pattern.

I’d basically love to be braver, stronger, a better mother and have a wider culture.

What I can promise you is that I’ll try my best to be braver, stronger and a better mother. Not sure of what the result will be, but still I’ll do it!

How about you, my dear readers?

Is there anybody you’re admiring so much that you would like to be more like her or him?

Let me know in the comments below!

Thoughts about gratitude.

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Me and Maya! 

 

One of the things I hear more often lately and I come across on social media, is how important gratitude is. Even on health perspective, it seems that being grateful would make you feel physically better.

I have to admit, instead, that since the beginning of last year, I’ve become increasingly pessimist. I wasn’t like it when I was younger, but getting repeatedly hit by the reality and hate of surrounding people, left next to zero room for much more.

However,  in the past couple of months I also realized that being pessimist and keeping to regret everything and to moan and wine about what the hell have I done to deserve such a horrible future, put me in deeper and deeper crap!

Suddenly my brain underwent for an unexpected change in the way of thinking!

I don’t know exactly what made me change the way of seeing things or at least is pushing me in the right direction, but I can see this is the right way of doing it and hopefully managing it.

The truth is that our world is full of sadness and injustice. There are far too many violent people to my taste. Women are still treated like dirt in an unbelievable number of countries in this century.

Religion brainwash people and is excuse enough to kill, being violent, use strength when the basic commandment is to love each other. 

Greed has become the new god; people cheat, betray and kill for more money, more fame, for boredom. Are we seriously freaking kidding?

Where is the love, respect, trust, humanity? Are they still alive? It’s because of these thoughts and because of this disgust I feel that that I started to modify the way I’m thinking.

True, there are many people who have more, for whom things are easier. On the other hand, however, there are an infinity more sick, poor, in awful condition, victim of injustice or abuse. Who think to those?

My boiler is gone Ok, no drama, I have an emergency electric system. And luckily I have the money at least to afford heaters and the high bill that will follow.

We feel sick? It’s nothing, I always touch wood for the health but, as far as this time around was concerned I was lucky to afford the doctor and the medicines. 

And that’s it, that is how simple it becomes to concentrate on what you have and not what you’re missing compared to the others.

I’m so grateful I have a job, a roof on my head, a loving partner, a gorgeous daughter, a caring mum, a trustworthy brother, a sweet sister in law and a big dream.

I believe that until I’ll have the strength to dream everything will be sweeter and, to some extent, easier to face.

This is to begin with and, compared to several hundreds of people who struggle to find something to put on the table every day, this is more than enough.

I was given an advice: fill a jar with piece of paper, on each piece of paper write what made you happy that day or week or month. At the end of the year, I’m to open the jar and read what I’ve been happy for and this should change my point of view and perception on my life. It’s unbelievable the number of things we forgot we should be grateful for. I started my jar and I realized that even my attitude is different, because now not only I notice nice things happening to me, but I’ll try to see the nice perspective in order to fill the jar.

My advice is to try.

On some extent, it’s understandable being negative, it’s easier to complain about what we don’t have rather than analyze and be content with what we have already.

It’s not a nice way of behaving but it’s the common way of reacting. We’re used to have what we want and the most of the time we have it. Or at least a big chunk of population has.

We don’t realize that everything we have is a gift and it might be as just easy as losing everything suddenly and find ourselves in the street in a blink.

What do you think about it?

How do you stay positive?

Write to me in the comments below!

Writing and Reading log – January 2017

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The last post of this month is not one of those I wrote during the holidays, but I thought that this year I’d start putting some order in my life and in my head…at least where I can.

Hence, I’ve decided that maybe the wisest thing to do was to merge my writing and reading logs into one.

 

Following is the listing of the books I’m reading at the moment and the updates on the status of them. To be honest with you, what I’m trying to do, is to reduce the number of the books I’m reading at the same time, so to be mentally more organized.

Outlander– Not gone very far, I’m at page 362 on 863.

Hunger– Here no news, I’m at page 234 on 586. It still makes me anxious to read it. But it’s very good, I have to win the battle.

Irish ghost stories– Here no news, I’m still at page 42 on 1102.

Wizards first rule– Here no news, I’m still at page 114 on 764.

 

Memorie del sottosuolo– I found it and I’m at page 28 on 196-ish

Delitto e castigo– I went on a bit on and I’m at page 184 on 684.

The wisdom of the dead man –  I’m still at page 37 on 469. Probably I will start again from the beginning in order to enjoy it more.

A Song of Ice and Fire –  volume three- Here no news, I’m still at page 192 on 569.

 

The scorch trials– Finished. I’m really waiting to see what will happen with the third film. Muhahahaha! They’ll so made a terrible mess!

City of bones – Went on for a while. I’m at page 208 on 506.

 

The book thief – I’m still at page 58 on 554.

 

Enciclopedia. Tutta la seconda Guerra Mondiale-volume 1– I’m still at page 53 on 493.

Madame Bovary– It’s lost in the phone somewhere but haven’t touch it from the last time! Again!

Shadowmagic– Ongoing, cannot exactly quantify as it’s an audiobook too! And once again I haven’t moved from the last time.

As for the writing, folks, I’m not going that fast unfortunately, but I have to be honest, I’ve been more consistent than the past few months.

You’ll read in one of my next posts, that the wrong approach I was having in my life was related to the goal setting.

I probably expected too much from myself. But it didn’t work and the result was just frustration and interruption of what I was doing.

During my Christmas break then, I came up with the idea of trying smaller goals. But, most of all, I’m trying not to be mean with myself and not get frustrated if I don’t manage to do what I’m supposed to do.

The smaller goals correspond to three pages of notebook written daily. I know that it seems just a little.

However, here what Stephen King says and actually helps me a lot: “Write a page a day, only 300 words, and in a year, you have written a novel”

See? I’ve actually counted.

Since I’m writing on a notebook, to avoid the internet distractions and to have a portable thing on which I can write potentially everywhere, I counted that 3 notebook pages correspond to 300 words.

Ok, it’s not much. Some days I manage to write more. Still, it’s doable the most of the times.

And the big pro is that my self-confidence is benefiting from that.

Also, once a week I set the goal of publishing a post on this blog, of plotting for 30 minutes and of preparing the draft for the next week’s post.

I’m still proceeding slowly and sometimes I don’t meet my goals, but I’m working hard.

I know that some of you will do more and I respect you. I wish I could, but for the moment this is my best, considering the roller coaster-like life I’m living.

And how do you do?

How do you get organized?

Tell me in the comments below, I’m open to suggestions!

Christmas holiday’s family misfortunes!

 

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Here again another post related to my annual leave!

I was so looking forward to my holiday, so looking forward to sleep, to relax and enjoy life that what happened gave me the most powerful slap in the face the 2016 could think of!

Immediately before my annual leave I started to feel sick, developing high temperature and so did Maya. Because I was worried she would miss her play in school and, most importantly, her birthday party, I decided to bring her to the Dub Doc – here in Dublin so it’s called that place where doctors are available after office hours or festive days – so to be given something. The diagnosis was tonsillitis…for the both of us!  

While there, in fact, I was visited as well, learning that I got the same problem and also that my temperature at the moment was higher than Maya’s. This brought me to spend what was supposed to be my last day in work at home sick.

After over a week I wasn’t feeling very well.

At the moment, while writing this post, the situation hadn’t changed and I was supposed to go back in work in one day…I was so freaking afraid, really.

Maya feels better but the temperature comes and goes and meanwhile, my partner was sick with 39 degrees’ temperature.

On the top of that the boiler, started to make a weird sound on the 22nd.

It sounded like an airplane taking off.

I promised to myself that I would call someone to have a look at it asap. That day, in fact, was the last day of school and Maya’s birthday so I didn’t mind much, in particular because the noise was much less by the evening.

Since it become very quiet, I didn’t worry…until my mum communicated that there was no hot water…

Oh, no…

We went to check the boiler and a happy orange light kept flashing at us! I started immediately to call number after number. Unfortunately, those who picked up the phone couldn’t help and those who could help were closed until next year.

Only one guy tried his best to help us via phone but then he went to check the user manual of this particular boiler and it was clear that we couldn’t win. The emissions were involved.

Eventually even my plumber came over but he told me it was too dangerous to go near it.

We had to give up and wait the supplier, who’s in co. Kerry, the only one in Ireland, to return from holiday.

We went immediately to buy a couple of small heaters and we did with those until the first week of January.  

2016 was an awful, horrible, mean year and I’m glad is over and I hope against hope that everything will go as smooth as possible in 2017.

But considering how’s started, I wouldn’t bet on it either!

How about you?

How did your holiday go?

Anybody with last minute surprises?

Maya’s 5th birthday!

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The second post of the year, will be related to a very important event happened in December: Maya’s birthday!

I mentioned already the following posts will be a bit messed up timeline-wise, but it’s OK I guess!

I cannot believe Maya is 5 already! She’s growing so fast, it’s unbelievable.

The birthday party I’m talking about in this post was organized for the 3rd birthday we celebrated in Ireland, but it was the first one spent with her friends.

In the past couple of years, I organized her parties in Italy. I have there a couple of friends with kids.

Their age is different from Maya’s though and they weren’t available at all the times.

The rest of the guests were just grownups; sure, family and friends but still adults. We used to organize it in a pub owned by a friend of us.

It had been very nice, but I realize only now that it was more for us that we decided to organize them that way, rather than for Maya.

This year, however, since we were stuck in Ireland, I had to organize the birthday party here.

It was a totally different experience, not only from the organization point of view but also from my own experience! It was incredibly fun!

First of all, we found a place for the party. I had to ask information to other mums in school as I didn’t have the slightest idea of where it was best to organize a party. I went to a couple of parties in the past few years, but it never occurred to me to ask information for some reason.

I was advised about a place not very far from our house. We went to have a look on the way back from a holiday we took in county Clare – I still have to tell you about it. I will, I promise – and Maya loved it immediately. It’s a huge place of soft toys, slides and circuits. A great way to release energies!

Found the location, I asked Maya to give me a list of kids she would like to invite. We sent the cards and also prepared the goodie bags, something absolutely new to me. In Italy, we don’t use the goodie bags, but I prefer this way, it’s nicer!

It was great preparing everything with her. Now that she’s older she’s participating with ideas and help and I think that it’s important in these occasions. Most of all being aware of what you’re doing, makes the realization more interesting.

I have to admit that I was a bit anxious; this time not for me but for her. For a long while the replies didn’t arrive, and I was afraid that the kids won’t show up for some reason. Eventually we had 6 guests and Maya was over the moon and me with her! I could breathe again!

The real fun, then, was to see Maya with her friends, the ones she personally picked, to be part of her special day. They were running up and down the play area, discovering the bits and pieces of that huge place! I found deeply amusing and satisfactory watching her to play with children she knows and of her same age.

So, although almost a month later, I renew once again my happy birthday’s wishes, my love, 100 of these days to the loveliest girl in the world!

Dear 2017

Hello everybody, how are you?

I’m finally back! I missed these pages.

I’ve managed to put aside a few post drafts while rattling sick at home in the past couple of weeks.

Apologies in advance if the timing frame of the next posts will seem confused.

But let’s start with this!

2016 hasn’t been easy as it set for us several trials. I really hope against hope that 2017 will be easier and nicer to me and my family and friends, hence this brief message to it:

Dear 2017,

It’s me, Franny. Welcome!

You’re a new year, so you might not be interested in me, but let me introduce myself.

I’m 37, Leo and I have a nice family.

Please, leave all this as it is for another 365 days, I like my family as it is with pros and cons.

It’d be nice to have another little one, but it could be next year, I’m not that fussy!

I have a nice job, I love my workplace and the majority of people who work there, so please, be good, let me stay there!

And I have a big dream and I’d love this dream to become a reality.

I’m aware I’ll have to work some more to even try to make it real, but please assist me with some strength and spare time to make this reality a tad closer.

Dear 2017, I’ve just been through a very nasty year, I don’t really want much from you and I promise I’ll be very, very good, but, please, be nice and more understanding than your last counterpart.

I promise that I will not only be good but I’ll try to take more care of myself, so please give me a hand, will you?

I don’t think that asking for health, loving family and some spare time is a big request, but if it is, I’ll do with just the health and loving family.

I’ll be good, dear 2017, very good and I’ll do my best, that’s a promise.

With love,

Franny.

Well, reading it sounds really like I’m pleading, but I’m seriously sick and tired of being sick and tired and unlucky. I’m taking some actions, but at the same time I need external help, for example a year that doesn’t squash me under its foot!

How about you? How’s the 2106 been for you, readers?

What do you want from your 2017?

Let me know in the comments below!

Holiday break!

It’s the right thing to do at this stage!

Since I’m still playing hide and seek with my stress, and stress is winning, it always finds me in the end, I think it’s right to cut off something else.

What I’m saying is that I’ll temporarily have to cut off with the commitment to write here on this blog.

This doesn’t mean that I’ll stop writing. I’ll keep going on, of course, not only because I love doing so, but also because I’ve promised to a dear friend of mine.

However, I’ll have to find a system that might work for me, and won’t stress me out too much. I know, I know, I’m damn funny, you might think!

I’m actually doing it already! I haven’t update this blog for ages, almost a month.

It’s not like I’m trying to repairing with this post, I’m rather taking consciousness of the problem and trying to sort it at my best.

I don’t even know if this break is going to help, but I’ll try to brace myself and prepare a few posts in advance, so I won’t have much stress on me when I’ll come back.

To be honest with you I have some snippets of posts already made, I had weird dreams and I keep jotting down the ideas about what I’d love to write about. This let me hope I’ll manage once again to make it.

So, no worries, I’ll have my holiday break and I’ll come back in January as fresh as ever!

For the time being I wish you all the best for the holidays to come!

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